Sometimes I think and write in english because I feel different. I feel less unprotected, that no one can understand whats happens to me. It's like someone reads my mind and I think in english nobody can understand. Anyway, I feel so tired of being sad all the time but I don't know how to be better. Maybe looks foolish let myself feel bad all the time, but that is all I have, myself. I have not got no one to tell all, ALL THE THINGS that happen to me. Sometimes I feel that I want to change, change everything, but can not find the way to do it. It's really horrible and I feel a great impotence; I can only do what I always do... wait, wait for the time to change everything. But long ago I'm waiting for things to change and I have fear of how much longer I will have to wait
Well, the truth is I do not know why I'm writing this but I feel that it was necessary.